Category Archives: Chronic Illness

Maintaining An Accurate Medication List

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In my five part series on medications I briefly discussed the importance of having a medication list. I did not properly express how important to make sure that list is reconciled with your electronic record.  It is only recently that I went through a situation in which I learned this lesson the hard way. In short, my electronic record caused two family practitioners to reject me as a new patient when my Internist died suddenly in July.

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Let’s face it, those of us with multiple chronic illnesses take a lot of medications. My med list fills a sheet of copy paper when printed. It is time consuming to update the list at the physician’s office so I always provided a printed list of meds to the nursing staff each visit to save time and assumed they were updating the electronic record but in reality they would get bogged down with it because the list was long and had too many meds to cross check against the electronic record. They had to go grab the next patient, take lab samples, and my list got put aside and then forgotten in the rush of the day.

I always knew what medication I was taking. My doctor knew what I was taking. So what if the nursing staff didn’t have it right in the computer system? As a retired RN, I have a working knowledge of medications and interactions. So, no big deal, right? Wrong! Two family practitioners rejected me as a patient based on my complicated inaccurate medication list after my PCP died. Had it not been for the kindness of a doctor I use to work with as a nurse, I would still be searching for primary care. I am pleased to report when I saw him as a patient for the first time last week it was equally important to his nurse to make sure my medication list was accurate and we got it fixed!

Making sure the electronic medication record is correctly reconciled to your home list is very important for reasons far greater than my snafu in finding a new PCP. The whole goal of reconciling it is to prevent medication errors one of which is FATAL drug interactions. Every physician’s office and hospital are required to accurately record your home medication list. This can be tiresome, but it is for your safety.

I saw evidence of a serious drug interactions first hand in my nursing career. My most memorable experience was a female, middle age patient who was admitted to the hospital in acute renal failure. She had no underlying kidney disease. The doctors were stumped. It was a specialist who asked, “Did you tell the nurse about ALL the medications were taking, including herbs, vitamins, and supplements?” and her response was a “No”. Her husband brought in a 13 gallon trash bag half full of herbs and vitamins she was taking regularly thinking she was doing everything she could to be healthy. Unfortunately, there were several toxic interactions between the herbs and prescription medications that were killing her kidneys requiring emergency dialysis to get the toxins out of her blood not only to safe her kidneys but her life.

In another case that could easily happen to any of us occurred when a friend of mine was experiencing some new symptoms and saw the Nurse Practitioner at the primary care physicians (PCP) office. A few sample boxes of a new medication on the market was given. When my friend developed complications and a reason could not be discovered, a specialist was sought. After a round of additional testing still there was not a reason found for the symptoms. It wasn’t until the specialist looked at the medication record scanned into the electronic record from the PCP to find the potentially fatal interaction between the newly marketed sample medication and a long term medication on my friend’s medication list. My friend had not listed the samples on the specialists new patient paperwork. The medication regimen was changed and I’m happy to say my friend is doing well.

So, what can you do to make sure the medication you take at home matches what is on file in your electronic medical record? Here are some ideas:

  1. Take a written list of medications to each physician’s visit. Include ALL medications including those prescribed, samples, over the counter medications (like Tylenol, antacids, and cold medicines), herbs, vitamins, supplements. Make note of any changes in your medication regimen since your last visit. When writing your medication list, be sure to write down the exact information from your prescription bottle. (For example: Ranexa 500mg. Take 1 tablet orally twice daily.)
  2. When the nursing staff goes over your medication list I recommend you do not give them your list until you have gone over it together. First tell her/him about any changes and be patient while each are updated in the electronic record. Then ask her to read the list on the computer screen while you check off the medication with a pen on your list.
    • Ask him/her to add any medications, including over the counter medications, herbs, vitamins, and supplements that are on your list that were not read off.
    • Ask him/her to delete any meds read off that are no longer on your list.
  3. If you have access to your electronic record through a patient portal, use it regularly to verify that the medications listed there match your actual regimen.

Because of the lack of understanding by the public about the importance of maintaining a accurate medication list, many physician offices are requiring that you bring all your prescription and non-prescription medications to each visit so they can read the bottles themselves to verify the prescription, especially when prescribed by a different practitioner. My cardiologist requires this practice.

In some cases of long term prescription narcotics for chronic pain conditions, the prescribing physician is requiring the prescription bottle be presented on each visit where it is inspected for date of prescription and the remaining pills are counted and the patient is asked to give a urine sample for drug detection to verify what was prescribed shows up on the drug screen results as people are selling their narcotics on the street instead of actually taking them. The urine drug screen will also verify if the patient is taking any other narcotics.

So, drag those prescription medications, over the counter medications (including seasonal allergy medications, heartburn medications, and aspirin), vitamins, supplements, and herbs out of the bin you keep them in and put your pen to paper. Hundreds of thousands of drug interactions hospitalize Americans each year. Don’t let yourself be one of them through miscommunication about your medication regimen at home.

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Impact of War on Opioids

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The impact of the USA’s war on opioid prescriptions for pain has come home to me in an unexpected way. In July 2017 my primary care physician, Dr. Ignacio Gonzalez, MD – Internal Medicine, died suddenly of a heart attack. Dr. Gonzalez and I were once colleagues at the hospital in which I served as a Charge Nurse for the Oncology and Renal floor. He served as my primary care physician for a number of years following my case as my health deteriorated and I was forced into retirement by disease and pain. As part of my overall healthcare he prescribed my pain medication. Now that he has passed away I cannot find a family practitioner to take my case among his colleagues. In the denial for primary care within the practice I was told, “your case is complicated and the doctor does not prescribe opioids” by one practitioner whereas another just flatly rejected me with no reason why.

Wow! Right? I was shocked, angry, and felt betrayed by a agency I trusted and had a wonderful working relationship with the physicians there when I was a nurse. I have been retired due to disability since 2011. A lot of the available family practice doctors are new and do not know me as a nurse. The first physician that declined my case based upon my medical record flatly does not prescribe pain medication. When I countered that I would seek referral to a pain management doctor, my case was still denied, which made no sense to me until I realized how my medical record must look to them. Gone are the days when you have a sit down with a prospective doctor. You are evaluated on your record. This is why it is so important to make sure that information is up-to-date and correct!

I had to acknowledge I look bad in black and white on my medical record because of my drug allergies, medication list and a history of chest pain. My record raises a red flag to medical providers that I may be a “drug seeker”. How? As a nurse, I know the first thing a patient seeking drugs will claim is they are “allergic” to Lortab (hydrocodone) and/or Morphine. This complaint of pain is usually “chest pain” which they have learned will get them IV push medication until the doctors sort out the EKG and other findings to prove or rule out said “chest pain”.  When drug seekers falsely claim allergies to get to Dilaudid, 10 times stronger than Morphine, the system is abused and causes medical providers to become jaded. When someone like me honestly presents with these conditions, allergies and medication list containing opioids I very much fit the profile of “drug seeker”.

What am I to do? I wish I knew presently. The Internists associated with this medical practice are full up not accepting any new patients. With the Family Practitioners denying my case, I am currently being bounced around between my specialists: Endocrinology, Gastroenterology, Cardiology, Rheumatology, Oncology. To top it off, I have had a fungal urinary tract infection for two months following my last Rituxan infusion for Rheumatoid Arthritis. The Rituxan drastically depletes B-cells in the immune system to lower symptoms caused by the RA. As a result of lowered immunity, I have developed a infection that did not respond to the course of treatment. With no PCP, the Endocrinologist who discovered the infection is having to refer me to a Urologist … another specialist to add to the heap. Since Dr. Gonzalez died, I have had three medical procedures by specialists with no one to put the pieces of my symptomology together because loosing your PCP is like losing the ruder of a boat .. without anyone to steer the boat it turns in circles or runs a ground. That is what is happening to my healthcare management as I am a poor ruder!

As far as my current opioid prescriptions go, the medical practice is having Dr. Gonzalez’s colleagues honor his prescriptions for 3 months, giving the patients time to find alternative care.  When a physician dies, all his current prescriptions become null and void meaning that the refills have been cancelled at the pharmacy.  I have been stretching my pain med patches from the 7 day prescription to 12 days to try to make them last as long as possible, which is ineffective in battling my symptoms. My flares have increased from 1 per 6 month period following Rituxan to 3-4 and I’m only half way through my cycle. The next infusion is not until late December. As we all know, stress is a contributing factor to the flares. I cried over the loss of my dear physician and then I’ve bawled over the rejection of his colleagues and then got so angry I had chest pain as a response to the injustice of it all! This has been truly maddening! I know Dr. Gonzalez, may God bless his soul, must be horrified at what is happening to his patients.

I am in a holding pattern waiting to see if one of the Internal Medicine doctors who knew me as a nurse, will take my case. Believe me, I know how lucky I am to have that nurse/doctor relationship to draw on in my healthcare as a trump card. I have never exploited that relationship because of such respect I have for the position.  Should this Internist refuse, my only other option is to go outside the practice which will fracture my healthcare between multiple disciplines. This means I will have to find not only a new PCP but a Pain Management specialist as I am not likely to find a PCP until it is clear that my opioids are being prescribed by Pain Management to relieve a PCP of the obligation. In addition I am going to have to find one of my specialists to make a personal referral so that the new PCP I seek will know that I am a legit patient with true allergies and medical conditions. They don’t have time to do this but without it I don’t see my situation improving without a personal referral vs. submission of my chart only by medical staff.

The federal agencies that impact opioid prescribing (such as the DEA, FDA, CDC) are wanting to phase out opioid prescriptions for non-cancer pain. The CDC even has a one page bulleted poster for physicians recommending their plan for chronic pain patients which involves therapy, non-narcotics, and limiting prescriptions for chronic pain to short term use! We don’t have a voice in this war against opioids because there is NO research in chronic pain because it HAS NOT BEEN FUNDED but there is plenty of research on the number of deaths caused by opioid prescriptions. Consider this map from the CDC:

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I fear my story and others (https://themighty.com/2017/08/war-on-opioids-prescription-drug-addiction-affects-chronic-pain-patients/) will fall to the wayside in the war on opioid prescriptions. Those who abuse prescription drugs will continue to do so, finding a way, while those of us who truly suffer from daily pain will be left with no legal recourse unless moving to a state where cannabis is available.

I will be writing my state legislature to tell my story as a way to advocate for myself and others like me. I would urge you to do the same. Unless we are willing to stand together and make our voices heard we will succumb and be the silent victims in the war against opioid prescriptions.

Update: After posting this blog entry to my personal Face Book page, I received a FB Private Message from a physician in the medical practice of my deceased physician who kindly agreed to take my case. I praise God because I did not know what I was going to do for primary care. I have prayed about this situation for weeks and so have my loved ones and members of my church family. I understand how fortunate I am to have the nurse – doctor relationship and how that influences my care. I can’t help but to think of all those who don’t have that connection, who are left out because of questionable allergies, opiates on their med list, and have chronic illness. Where is their voice? Please write your legislature. No one else is going to stand up for us if we don’t stand up first.

 

 

 

 

 

Do No Harm

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“Do no harm” may have been a standard in medicine at one time, but our modern healthcare environment is geared toward maximum profits with less emphasis on quality patient care.  More and more doctors are employees instead of entrepreneurs in today’s healthcare market and to get maximum reimbursement on services rendered, they are allowing insurance agencies dictate the model of care. As a result, patients are getting substandard care and doctors are leaving the field and taking up other occupations.

Do_No_Harm_Heading_800As patients, we tend to forget we are paying for a service. We are consumers of healthcare services but we are treated more like the enemy than the customer. In order to advocate for patients in the past, I have likened healthcare to auto mechanic service. If you put your car in the garage and the mechanic fails to fix the car do you just say “okay”, pay him and accept your broken car? If the receptionist at the auto mechanic’s office fails to communicate that your car was ready on Friday but it’s now the following Tuesday do you say, “okay?” or do you complain about the hardship their incompetence caused you? That may seem silly but it is the same for your body which is priceless compared to a car. So, why do we accept this as the way things are in healthcare and just go on? I would suggest that we are part of the problem.

The chronically ill accept sub-standard service in healthcare because of fear. We need healthcare which makes us a vulnerable group. As sick as we are with RA and all it’s ugly step-sister diseases we are afraid if we complain the doctor will dismiss us as patients, the medical staff will drag their feet even more, and we will be labeled as a difficult patient which can get us blackballed as a potential patient for a alternate physician/group. We fear these things with good cause because they happen but not as frequently as you might think. It is not too much to ask that the standard of care be met. We shouldn’t have to be frustrated, afraid, and voiceless. There are steps we can take that do not involve filing a law suit to make a difference when we encounter problems in today’s healthcare environment:

  1. Understand your patient rights. As the patient, you should always be treated with respect. Good customer service practices should not be lacking in healthcare nor should you be discriminated against based upon your sex, race, or financial status. Many times these rights are presented to us at the point of new service for healthcare but we blindly sign where instructed without reading or knowing our rights as patients.
  2. When a grievance arises, register a complaint with the appropriate manager of the medical office, hospital, or treatment center. These days, physicians rarely own their own practices. That means the physician along with the medical staff are employees of the medical facility.  For example, clinics generally allow 15 minutes per patient in the office. If you spend that time complaining about the billing clerk then you have misused your time with the physician who in most cases can do nothing about your bill.
  3. Consider firing your physician if you are unhappy with his/her services, have fractured trust, or a personality conflict. You have the right to fire your physician. My advice would be to seek and obtain another healthcare provider before firing your existing one to prevent a lapse in prescriptions and to make a smooth transition. You may hear that doctors can “fire” patients, but what that really means is they can refuse care. Refusal of care should never be a threat as that involves manipulating the patient/doctor relationship which is unethical.
  4. File a rating with healthgrades.com and/or vitals.com which are two of the most widely used physician rating and review sites on the internet. You may not receive resolution to your issue but you may help a potential patient steer clear of the trouble you experienced. Physician practices look at these sites. They do not want poor scores because it has a direct impact on their ability to attract new patients. On a positive note, if you have a doctor that rocks then give them a good score on these rating sites.
  5. Register a complaint with your state licensing board for grievous misconduct. A simple online search will provide you with the licensure board information for your state. This type of complaint goes for doctors,  nurses and other healthcare providers who carry a professional license. Complaints are investigated and should the license holder be in violation of negligence, unethical behavior, or a host of other violations of condition of licensure their license may be revoked, suspended, or tagged for disciplinary action all of which can include a hefty fine and/or education courses to correct the deficiency if warranted. When disciplinary action is filed against a physician the mandatory medical malpractice insurance premium is sure to increase significantly for that practitioner if they are continued to allow to practice. If the violation of the license violates state law, criminal charges may also be levied by the State District Attorney.
  6. File a complaint with Medicare at medicare.gov if you are a Medicare recipient and feel your rights have been violated. The Centers for Medicare and Medicaid take complaints very seriously. Medical providers do not want to loose their Medicare contracts! For example, complaints can be filed online with Medicare about:
    • improper care or unsafe conditions
    • hospital conditions
    • your doctor
    • drug errors
    • unnecessary or inappropriate surgery or treatment
    • not getting treatment after your condition changed
    • incomplete discharge instructions and/or arrangements
  7. Write your legislature. As healthcare is being shaped by our government, we need to have an active voice in this arena. Contacting your elected officials about your unique experience with the healthcare system makes you a person, not a number and can help them as they shape law that applies to medical licensure, healthcare insurance, standards of care, and patient rights.

Sometimes healthcare professionals make mistakes that can impact our lives adversely. When should you consider a case for malpractice? When the substandard conduct of a physician results in injury that is a breach of reasonable care. As an example, there are two women who have autoimmune disease in my circle of friends, that have received substandard care. Each have given me permission to give a synopsis of what happened to them for purposes of giving an example of what may be deemed medical negligence.

  • Case 1: After a cat bite to the finger, medical care was sought for a resulting infection and inflammation. The bite was not treated with the autoimmune condition in mind and the inflammatory response advanced to the point surgery was required to straighten the finger. A external fixation device was applied to the finger which the patient had to have adjusted at regular intervals. Again, autoimmune disease was not taken into consideration although the patient’s specialists for said disease was consulted. The fixation device attached to the bone drove infection into bone which resulted in several surgeries to clean out, replace the joint, then remove the replacement. Ultimately the patient had to undergo a amputation of the finger.
  • Case 2:  Patient sought treatment with a pain management doctor who performed radio frequency ablation in two procedures to the nerves in the back as a treatment for RA/OA pain in the spine. Following the second procedure the patient had increased pain beyond the time period of healing. On follow up she was not allowed to see the physician who performed the procedure and was directed to a Nurse Practitioner who failed to perform an examination but instead ordered a drug screen, issued a lecture about pain management, dependency, and suggested counseling when none of these applied to this case. Seven weeks post procedure, the patient went to her orthopedic office and a x-ray of the spine revealed a severe compound fracture about 7 weeks old approximate to the area radio frequency ablation procedures had been performed. During the time the fracture was untreated, a piece of the broken spine migrated toward the spinal cord rendering stabilization with medical cement inappropriate. Twelve weeks post procedure, the patient is in a back brace and the fracture has not healed. The outcome is uncertain.

Although physicians violated the standard of care due these women, to date they have chose not to file a malpractice suit against their healthcare providers. Both have moved on from the physicians who caused them harm and they have shared their stories in support groups on social media and urge others to advocate for themselves in today’s healthcare system. As you can see these cases go beyond that of a disgruntled patient. Each woman has received a permanent injury due to a breach of the standard of care being met. (The standard of care is the treatment that other physicians of equal training would deliver in the same circumstance.)

If we just sit back quietly and accept that sub-standard service is the way of things nothing will ever change.  Somewhere along the way, “do no harm” was pushed aside and a patient focused approach was lost. We stopped becoming the customer along the way. Collectively we can take a stand. This kind of healthcare reform starts with us and what we are willing to accept as appropriate treatment from our medical providers.

 

Rituxan: The End of the Road

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Greetings from my world post Rituxan infusions! I started Rituxan in August and received two loading dose infusions 14 days apart. Rituxan works to deplete B-cells in the battle of autoimmune disease. I am seven weeks post infusion and I am feeling so much better. For the 1st time since I was diagnosed in 2009, I feel that I am on a treatment that has made a significant impact on my disease process but it took coming to the end of the road! Rituxan was the drug of last resort in my treatment as I have tried almost all the known treatments available to me. My next infusion is in late January 2017. The Rituxan infusions will be every six months as needed with weekly injections of Methotrexate.

From May – August of 2016 I was walking through hell as my diseases exacerbated and my treatment failed on Actemra. We’ve all been there: the sleepless nights, the worrying if this is your new reality for the rest of your life, the unbelievable pain, the impaired mobility, and the depression that threatens to swallow you. My seronegative rheumatoid disease and it’s ugly step-sisters were all aggravated in turn causing my diabetes to spiral out of control with blood sugars averaging 400+, and all of that tripped off my heart issues causing episodes of angina.

I saw my cardiologist in May, shortly after my 49th birthday, and he put his foot down and told me I HAD to get the autoimmune diseases in check or I was going to have a heart attack!!! That was very sobering. As I have mentioned in previous blogs, I was disgusted with the rheumatology care in my area. As a result I had seen my Internal Medicine MD and an Oncologist to manage my rheumatology care for the last year. My cardiologist told me something had to change. The pain and inflammation was too much and was stressing my heart. He also told me that the diabetes treatment needed adjusted. I left there and made appointments with my Endocrinologist and Oncologist.

Mind you I was seeing the Oncologist for management of the Methotrexate. He agreed to take me on working with my primary care Internal Medicine MD. Incidentally, he treats my Mom for her cancer, so him seeing me was a kindness. He is a Christian man and an overall stand up guy and I appreciate his willingness to help! However; my disease was advancing again and reeking havoc on my body. He told me that I was time for the Rituxan treatments and set me up with an appointment with a local Rheumatologist as a consultation for the use of Rituxan stating he had to have the input of a Board Certified Rheumatologist. That made sense to me and was fair.

My Endocrinologist was not happy with my A1C level at 12.3. Ideally, that number should be below 7. We made some adjustments in my medication regimen of oral meds and insulin. I knew until my pain levels were handled the blood sugar readings would continue to be high. I have had a difficult time getting my Endo to realize the impact the pain and inflammation have played in my diabetes, but post Rituxan my levels fell like a stone and my A1C level dropped to 9.8! I think I am making a believer out of him! In all fairness he is a great Endo and has confessed to me that he hasn’t ever had a patient with the mix of complicated diseases I have and we are breaking new territory together.

The Rheumatologist I saw did not want to re-diagnose me, thank God! I don’t know if it was the consultation order from an Oncologist that did it or that God knew I might go postal on another argumentative, arrogant Rheumatologist, but the appointment was interesting! He was reluctant to try Rituxan and recommended I at least try Arava for one month. I was not happy with his choice but felt compelled to work with him to get the Rituxan approval. The Arva was a horrible drug for me. Instead of reducing inflammation it worked to exacerbate my tenosynovitis to the point my mobility was greatly impaired and I was having frequent angina episodes. In fact, I had to have a nuclear cardiac stress test during this month. Upon return to the Rheumatologist, he did drop the Arava and gave the approval to my Oncologist to start Rituxan therapy.

The first infusion of Rituxan was over 6 hours. I was given oral Tylenol and IV piggyback bags of steroids and Benadryl prior to the infusion to help prevent any reaction. Because of the IV steroid I had to monitor my blood sugar hourly and give myself insulin as prescribed by the Endo. Rituxan is a monoclonal antibody that works against the protein CD20 found on the surface of immune system B-cells. According to medicinenet.com a B-cell is a type of white blood cell and, specifically, a type of lymphocyte. Many B-cells mature into what are called plasma cells that produce antibodies necessary to fight off infections.”  This targeting of B-cells is what makes Rituxan different from any other treatment I have tried.

Rituxan treatment is not without risk and this is why it was the end of the road treatment for me. Other than Symponi and Gold injections, I have tried all the other treatments for rheumatoid disease. My Oncologist rejected Remicade as an option because I had failed all the other TNF drugs. Patients have been known to die during or following a Rituxan infusion because of an allergic or adverse reaction. A monoclonal antibody is made from mice cells. The human body sees this as an invader and will try to reject it. This is why pre-medications are given to combat this reaction and the first infusion is given slowly over 6 or more hours to inhibit a reaction. The next infusion 14 days later was given in half the time at 3 hours since I did not have a reaction. The night after the second infusion I had some minor chills and ran a low grade fever that was relieved by ibuprofen.

I slept a lot through both infusions. The IV bag of Benadryl made me very drowsy. My Mother was with me throughout the infusions and drove me home from treatment for which I am very thankful. She helped me stay on top of my blood sugar monitoring because I was so drowsy.  I found that I was tired for a few days afterward, but I attribute some of the fatigue to the Benadryl as I have always been sensitive to this medication. I was feeling somewhat better when I received by second infusion but was feeling a vast improvement of symptomatology two weeks after my second infusion.

I saw my Rheumatologist last week and he was very pleased with my progress. The pain has been cleaved in half of what it was before. Fatigue remains. My liver enzymes did soar after the first infusion but my lab work last week showed they had normalized. I did get my flu shot in September from my primary care Internal Medicine MD but the Rheumatologist warned that I may not have any B-cells left to give immunity from the flu and warned that I need to take precautions against the flu this winter. As a diabetic, I cannot take steroids so I use prescription ibuprofen, Omega 3, and Vitamin E. This Rheumatologist recommended Turmeric 1000mg daily to my current regimen. My inflammation is better and the CRP and ESR are within normal limits on my lab report.

I have hope that this treatment is going to work. I was so afraid it wouldn’t and I would be stuck in the hellish nightmare of pain. I am doing better than I have in years and I am so thankful that my diabetes and cardiac issues are also falling into line with my improved health. Glory to God for answered prayers! Rituxan may be the end of the road for treatment options at this time, but it has put me on a new path to improved well being. Every doctor I have seen post infusion are ecstatic. People in my church say, “you look like you are feeling better”. I am better. Perhaps remission is just around the bend.

If you’d like to know more about Rituxan, I find drugs.com to be an excellent resource for laypersons about medications. Check out:  https://www.drugs.com/rituxan.html or Rituxan.com.

 

 

 

Benefits of Coloring for the Chronically Ill

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Coloring has been a favorite pastime for me so I couldn’t be more delighted when the adult coloring books with mandalas, florals, animals landed in stores this past Christmas. Prior to adult coloring becoming a fad, I was a closet coloring fiend! I have bunny and puppy children’s coloring books and crayons stashed! If anyone ever caught a coloring book in my magazine stack I’d just say it belonged to my cousin’s little girl! I didn’t want to be shamed for enjoying coloring like a child. I guess there were a lot of us secret coloring fans who came out of the closet at the same time given the explosion of books in the marketplace.

Coloring relaxes me, especially when I am coloring something that draws all my attention to detail. I now have four thick adult coloring books which I have proudly strewn through my house. I’ve traded crayons for colored pencils and markers.

Studies show that coloring something with detail like a mandala (round wheel with shapes and lines inside it) lowers anxiety levels.”Just like meditation, coloring also allows us to switch off our brains from other thoughts and focus only on the moment, helping to alleviate free-floating anxiety. It can be particularly effective for people who aren’t comfortable with more creatively expressive forms of art.”

As someone who battles chronic illness daily, I find that coloring can distract me from pain levels to a degree. Coloring requires concentration and an eye for details and mixing/matching colors. If my fingers are hurting, I’m mindful to only color for a short time and put it away instead of trying to finish a page. It make take me 3-4 sessions to finish a page and I’m usually happy with the results in having taken my time. I find it comforting to color from books with scripture from the Bible because while I’m coloring the design, the scripture is going round and round in my mind. That helps feed my soul.

I keep a coloring book and a tin of colored pencils next to the bed for those pain induced insomnia nights. Coloring helps still my mind, provides a distraction from the pain, and usually helps induce sleep. When I am a feeling a little blue, coloring lifts my spirits! I sometimes color in my quiet time with God to focus my prayers. Recently, my coloring has now drifted to Bible journaling with colored pencils and pens. This is also a growing trend in the Christian community.

Please don’t mistake coloring as art therapy. “According to the American Art Therapy Association, art therapy is a mental health profession in which the process of making and creating artwork is used to explore feelings, reconcile emotional conflicts, foster self-awareness, manage behavior and addictions, develop social skills, improve reality orientation, reduce anxiety and increase self-esteem.”* Although coloring can be beneficial mentally, art therapy involves a relationship with a therapist whereas coloring is an individual activity.

You can find adult coloring books now at any box retail store and I’ve even seen a few in Dollar General and Family Dollar stores. There is also a wide selection of adult coloring books available online from places such as Amazon. If you haven’t colored in a while, I’d encourage those of you who need to “get out of your head” to try your old childhood pastime of coloring. You might just be surprised at the benefits coloring can bring to your life.

*CNN – “Why Adult Coloring Books Are Good For You” (http://www.cnn.com/2016/01/06/health/adult-coloring-books-popularity-mental-health/index.html)

 

 

Rheumatoid Disease Awareness Day

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February 2nd is Rheumatoid Disease Awareness Day. The RPF: Rheumatoid Patient Foundation, supports this day of awareness for patients, the public, and healthcare providers. This organization was founded by patients for patients.

ccf1445a6effb0de4e0ac174beb14c4bYou can read about the foundation at this link: http://rheum4us.org/about/ and also check out their educational materials. This site provides a lot of good, sound information for the newly diagnosed and shares progress being made in treatment for those who have been living with the disease for a while. You may choose to join the Foundation, but it is not necessary to access their educational materials. I would encourage you to bookmark their internet page for your own reference.

How do you feel about bringing awareness to Rheumatoid Arthritis? I will confess over time, my thoughts have changed about the matter. I went through my stage of research: having to read everything about the disease to educate myself. Then I went through the woe is me stage as I struggled to cope. I became angry because no one knew what the disease was about and did not believe my level of suffering. The public compared my hellish suffering to osteoarthritis. I thought if one more person compares a disease that has leveled my life to rubble to their pinky “killing” them I might just be fitted for a orange jumpsuit with a life sentence. Funny though, living with rheumatoid disease is a life sentence in it’s own right minus the orange jumpsuit. One is imprisoned by their own body. The jailer is the immune system gone haywire. The disease took me down kicking and screaming. One day … over time … and with God’s help I realized I had to let it go. I felt like I was at the end of my coping. I was growing bitter. It wasn’t serving any purpose to focus on the injustice of it all except to keep me ripe for a flare.

Today I can look at awareness for rheumatoid arthritis as just that: awareness. You may in the lifetime you have this disease bring some people to a level of awareness but no one will ever fully get what your situation is like except for another patient with the same disorder. Even then, you may share the same disease, but your symptomology won’t be exactly the same. You will have a shared understanding of what it means to suffer… as they say “misery loves company”.  Still no one knows what it is like for you except for you and your maker.  Finally I realized there are two groups of rheumatoid disease patients: those surviving it with hope or those surviving it with despair. I made the choice to survive in hope.

The awareness I would like to leave with you as this day of rheumatoid disease awareness approaches is that you never have to be alone in despair with this disease again. When no one else understands, Christ does. When your doctor can’t help you, Christ can. When you don’t think you can take another step forward, Christ will carry you. He is there waiting for you to accept Him. No medication, physician, spouse, family can ever provide what He gives freely: salvation.  It is only through my personal relationship with Christ that I am surviving chronic pain and illness with hope. I know this world is not my home. I have hope for an eternal future in heaven with Christ where there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more suffering. I refuse to live my life defeated. Instead I am victorious in Christ because this disease won’t hold me in a grave.  If you don’t know Christ  then I ask you to reach out to Him. My healing may not happen in this world, but it will happen in Heaven and that is my awareness as I enter my 7th year of enlightenment. John 3:16.

Meds Take Role In Faking Wellness

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As I filled up two extra large medication planners this morning, one for morning and one for night to hold the 20 routine medications I take daily, I was cranky. I don’t like taking them. Some are expensive. Many of them stick in my throat due dryness associated with Sjogren’s Syndrome. Some of them hurt my stomach. Some of them make me feel dizzy and nauseated. Sometimes they don’t work!  I think to myself, “I’m not going to take them anymore!” Then the nurse rises up in me and says, “You will take your medication as ordered. You know better!” and the patient side of me who wants to throw the pills in the trash and run caves in to my more sensible nurse side.

Have you ever felt like stopping medication as a chronically ill person dependent upon your own personal pharmacy? I think you probably have. It’s normal. We don’t want to admit we have to rely on our medication regimens to get barely get by in life. Yet, throw a rebel fit and stop taking them for a day or two and suffer the consequences ten fold, right? Those 20 routine pills control a whole slew of chronic illnesses. Without these meds I quickly regress into a sloth that moans in pain without being poked, unable to get of bed.

I told a lady at church yesterday that I am a master at faking being well. I felt comfortable confiding that because she spoke the same language because she is finally coming into a autoimmune diagnosis of her own. The look in her eyes echoed mine. As I thought about that statement, it rang with resounding truth. How many of us are masters at faking being well? I suspect a large number of us are excellent actors!

I think we can attribute our academy award winning performances to our medication regimens. My medication does not control my symptoms as well as I would like, but for a few hours in the day I can fake being well to fit in socially. People like us, with autoimmune disease, understand the unwritten motto of the disease: You play, you pay (spoon theory).  The cost of faking being well is time spent resting. Going to morning and evening church services on Sunday wipes me out. I will spend all day Monday loafing between the bed and recliner too fatigued to do anything else. Throw a flare in there because I tipped the balance of play/pay (used too many spoons) and it’s ground zero. Can you relate?

In addition to the routine meds are the weekly and bi-weekly injections to slow the progression of rheumatoid arthritis, insulin injections, pain meds, muscle relaxers, ointments, balms, creams, gels, along with heating pads, hot packs, and cold packs. My bedside table and chairside tables are littered with prescriptions of all sorts. I have enough arthritic topicals to treat nursing home population twice! Try to take them away and I’ll tear your arm off! These medications promote my acting ability.

My name is Mischelle, and I am a faker at being well. Are you too?

 

 

 

More Than A Sinus Infection

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Fall is always the worse time for my seasonal allergies. I snuffle, sneeze, wipe watery eyes, and tilt my head to clear my ears. Maybe you do too? I’d been snuffling for a month to clear the post-nasal drip and ended up with sinusitis, aka a “sinus infection”, but it was no ordinary sinus infection because of underlying disease.

Because I have multiple autoimmune diseases, I take both Methotrexate and Actemra injections to slow the progression of the disease. I am also a diabetic. Diabetes is a disease that often masks infection.  During the time of having the snuffles, I continued to take the aforementioned drugs which lowered my immunity considerably. By the time I realized my seasonal allergies had become a full blown sinus infection, it was too late.

I say that it wasn’t an ordinary sinus infection because I am not well. Most healthy adults can manage a sinus infection with minimal impact to their lives. In my case, the month of snuffling had caused congestion in the sinuses when coupled with the decreased immunity, turned into a infection. Not to be overly graphic, but the affected sinus cavities were packed with congealed mucus that contained pus and was too thick to drain effectively.  Sinus infections are not contagious. They often occur as a result of prolonged seasonal allergies. Sinus infections can either be bacterial or fungal. The bacterial type is the most prevalent among suffers of this illness which is why doctors typically prescribe antibiotics; however, if you are immunocompromised and have completed a round of antibiotics and still are symptomatic, you should consider that you have the fungal type of infection. If you have had multiple sinus infections, more than 3 in a season, then you have developed a “chronic” sinus infection which more than likely is fungal in nature.

It is very important to have a good relationship with your primary care physician (PCP). A PCP educated about autoimmune diseases like Rheumatoid Arthritis, will understand that a sinus infection in a immunocompromised patient needs prompt, aggressive action. Should that infection be prolonged, beyond the initial course of antibiotics the doctor should suspect that the infection could be fungal verses bacterial, requiring a different type of medication.

Do not leave your rheumatologist out of the communication loop. All drugs that impact immunity will need to be halted during treatment of an infection. Your rheumatologist or the physician prescribing your disease modifying drugs will give you a schedule to stop and resume your medications. Your rheumatologist can also work with your PCP to treat the infection.

In my case, my PCP recognized that I needed a strong antibiotic and decongestant to treat the sinus infection. I was given a course of Augmentin twice daily for 10 days and a liquid decongestant to promote drainage. All disease modifying drugs were stopped for the autoimmune diseases. My blood sugar readings soared out of range of the glucometer while my body tried to fend off this infection requiring  insulin injections in addition to the oral diabetic medications I take.  I had a fever of 102, hard chills, a sore throat, and difficulty breathing lying down ….. and then I flared. The infection triggered a monster flare that put in bed for three days. This domino effect of one illness causing other illnesses to skew is commonly the case with people with autoimmune diseases.

It’s not “just a sinus infection” that can quickly be recovered from while you continue with work, parenting, or daily activities when you have compromised immunity. Friends, family, and co-workers may not fully comprehend why you are so sick with because a sinus infection may be a routine illness to them that is a inconvenience for a few days. This can be hurtful. Be prepared not to have the severity of your symptoms acknowledged or understood by others.

It is exhausting to have to explain and re-explain your chronic autoimmune illness, but if you live alone, as I do, you need to make it a priority to have contact with at least one person who understands your illnesses or that you can educate about the severity of the situation so that someone is looking in on you when you do experience an acute infection. Any infection in an immunocompromised patient can quickly advance into something more serious requiring emergency medical treatment.

Skeptical? Sinus infections can advance to meningitis, infection of the bony structures of the sinuses requiring surgical intervention, and can even result in death. Consider this from medicinenet.com: “While serious complications do not occur frequently, it is possible for sinus infection to cause a direct extension of infection into the brain through a sinus wall, creating a life-threatening emergency (for example, meningitis or brain abscess). In addition, other adjacent structures can become infected and develop problems, such as osteomyelitis of bones in the skull and infection around the eye (orbital cellulitis). Rarely, these infections (mainly bacterial and fungal organisms) may cause death. The most susceptible individuals to complications are patients with suppressed immune systems, diabetes, and relatively rarely from multiple trauma injuries that may occur in natural disasters.”

The very nature of the disease modifying drugs we take can lower our immunity to the degree that a sinus infection can be a serious illness. Don’t ignore your symptoms. Seek early treatment.

 

 

Does Social Media Promote Loneliness in the Chronically Ill?

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Loneliness is a very real problem among people these days, but more so with the chronically ill. Any kind of long term illness is isolating, but the world we live in today promotes loneliness. You might ask, “how can that be?” with the explosion of growth in social media. Although these types of media help make the chronically ill feel more connected to others, it actually can serve to isolate one from face-to-face meaningful communication which builds relationships. I think this is quite evident among younger generations who would rather text than speak to one another.

An article from The Huffington Post, titled “Seduced By Social Media: Is FaceBook Making You Lonely?” states: “The problem is multi-fold. The time we spend socializing online not only discourages face-to-face communication, but it also undermines our confidence at engaging in real conversations with real people about the real problems and issues that thread through our lives. Indeed, social networking provides a means of escape, an easy out on having to confront those parts of our lives we wish were different; more glamorous, and less mundane.” (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/margiewarrell/social-media-lonely_b_4034744.html) Although, I agree with that statement, I also know that without social media I would personally feel more of a disconnect with friends, family, and acquaintances. I live alone with a dog. My days can be pretty mundane and filled with pain with few distractions. More often than not, I welcome the distraction of FaceBook which is my favorite social media.

On the flip side, I do agree that if I were not an active user of social media and the internet, that it would force me into more face-to-face interaction or I’d spiral into despair! There are days that go by that I don’t see a soul, but I speak to friends and family daily over the phone. Yes, I still have a land-line … shocker! Chronically ill people need land lines to call for emergency medical service consistently and reliably. There was an informal poll taken in my Sunday School class regarding how many of us still hand land lines. I was one of three who confessed! I took notice of the reasons given why these women prefer text to talk and it comes down to being busy Mom’s with the unspoken hint of not wanting to run into the yuck of other people’s lives. Not because they don’t want to help others, but because they are so bogged down in their own lives they are hanging on by their fingernails trying to manage their own families! Texts are quick and efficient, communicating the bare minimum of information. Talk can be long, drawn out without communicating anything of importance but allows one to pick up on inflection of words, emotion, and other non-verbal communication types.

I truly try to monitor my FB communication and not post any Debbie Downer, woe-is-me stuff. This view does tend to support the Huffington Post’s article in that we don’t communicate honestly on social media about our real lives. Guilty here, but only by omission. Do I want to spill my guts on FB? I think not. I try to run everything I post on FB through the “What Would Jesus Post” filter because I want to use social media as a platform to witness to others. Rather than post anything too personal like the horrific pain I’m having, I would rather post a bible verse that is meaningful to me that day, something educational about health, or pictures of my dog that make me smile! I can’t even say I am posting it for other people. I mostly post for myself and if it touches someone else then I am blessed.

Please understand, if you need to vent about your disease, pain, family dynamics and illness on your social media page and it works for you, I’m not condemning you. I am sharing that it’s not for me any longer. When I did engage in that type of posting early in my disease it didn’t miraculously open anyone’s eyes to my suffering, but did leave me feeling like absolutely no one cared! My posts weren’t “liked”, commented on, or effective in any positive manner for ME. I happen to have encountered illness groups on social media where people benefited greatly from sharing about their disease but these were in private venues on social media where participants had similar symptomology not the mainstream, shared newsfeeds.

So, I’m left debating each sides of the argument here. Regardless of how you view social media and how it can be a way to escape loneliness or promote loneliness, I can say with certainty that you are never alone. As a Christian woman, I have learned that God is always there even when it may not “feel” like it. God isn’t up above somewhere out of reach. He is with His children as close as the air we breathe! His Word says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” – Hebrews 13:5(b). In Sunday School today we learned that in the Greek, it translates, ” I will not, I will not, I will not let you down, leave you in the lurch, leave you destitute, leave you in straits and helpless, or abandon you.” (Stronger by Angela Thomas, p. 39-41). In this same study we looked at the apostle Paul and how he too was lonely during the time he was imprisoned, afflicted, awaiting execution by reading 2 Timothy 4:9-22. Paul chose to treat his loneliness by: asking for visits from godly and trusted friends, he asked for physical comfort from the cold, he asked for his books and parchments to keep his mind occupied, he forgave those who abandoned him, he reaffirmed his strength came from the never-forsaking presence of God, he kept his hope secure in Jesus Christ, he kept his worship focused on the glory of God, and he turned his thoughts away from himself and onto the welfare of his friends. (Stronger by Angela Thomas pg. 41).

What healthy actions might you take today to ease loneliness? I find that when I get out of myself and push my pain aside that I am most successful in combating loneliness by reaching out to someone else who is afflicted with a similar circumstance. God gave me a mission to, “feed his sheep” and I try to accomplish that by blogging about things I learn along the way (like this very blog you are reading), by calling members of my church congregation who are isolated or hurting, by calling a friend and asking them about themselves, by doing something nice for someone else even when I don’t feel like it, or engaging in bible study with friends. We can all do for others even if it is just buying a coffee for a stranger, putting a card in the mail, or just lending a ear without trumping woes with woes.

The debate will go on and on about social media and it’s detriment or contribution to society, but I do urge you that if you feel lonely in a household of people or as a 48 year old Dog Mom with lots of “yuck” in your life to reach out personally to someone. If no one else understands, find another member the autoimmune disease community with whom you can have honest communication. God made us for relationships. Specifically He made us for a relationship with Him! Rest assured you can tell God, your creator, anything. He can even handle your anger! Share with him the good, bad and ugly and soon you will experience his peace in your life amidst your problems. Pour your heart out to Him. He will never abandon or forsake His children. Learn of His promises by reading a good easy-to-understand version of the Bible. There are some great online Bibles now. God speaks to me through His Word.

How do you have a relationship with God? It’s as simple as A-B-C: A- admit you have sinned and ask for forgiveness, B – believe that God sent his only Son, Jesus Christ, to die for your sin so that you may have eternal life, C- confess with your mouth that Jesus Christ is your Lord and Savior.

When Mind Over Matter Isn’t Enough

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Do the phrases, “suck it up buttercup” or “you can do anything if you put your mind to it” sound familiar? Maybe these are things you say to yourself when you are struggling with your mobility, pain, and symptoms on any given day? Feelings of personal or perceived failure in letting yourself or others down often accompany these phases.

The things we tell ourselves when we are chronically ill have the power to hurt as surely as the insensitive phrases uttered by loved ones. In a recent Bible study*, I learned about how destructive the words we play over and over in our head because when we tie those phrases with strong emotion, physical pain, and mental anguish it creates a “memory trace” in our cerebral cortex which means every time we experience that situation again, our minds immediately go to that phasing and those feelings which reinforces it again causing it to become a belief.

God wired our brains. We do have the power through Him to change those destructive thought patterns. Scripture says, “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing, perfect will” (Romans 12:2). God also gave us the ability to accept or refuse thoughts. We can always call on God for his perspective in any given situation when we are unsure about our circumstances.

There was a time early in my disease process where I could power through my symptomology at a price of being confined to home for a day or two afterward. No longer. Disease has disabled me to the point I’m not able to function in a normal manner physically or mentally for any length of time without chest pressure caused by cardiac disease secondary to rheumatoid arthritis. When I hit my invisible disease wall, I must rest and take care of myself regardless of what I think or what anyone else thinks. It’s not easy. I still mess up and test the boundaries which sends me to my bed; however, I no longer beat myself up and put those memory traces into beliefs that are influenced by the enemy.

God has a purpose to work everything in my life to His glory and I don’t have to understand the reasons why. I replace defeating thoughts with scripture. For example, instead believing “you can’t do anything,” I replace it with scripture that says “With Christ, all things are possible” (Matthew 19:26) or “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13) With that said, those things that are possible with Christ are in His will, not mine. God isn’t a Jeanie in a bottle. God may not intend for me to keep a shopping date with a friend or to be able to go away for a weekend out of state but involving Him in the process keeps me from becoming discouraged and bogged down in thinking influenced by the enemy. Having God in my life gives me peace when I am dealing with struggles.

Do not let the enemy make you feel like your life is over because you are sick. That is a lie that will be perpetuated in your life to disable you spiritually! Instead, take time to write down Bible verses that pertain to your particular season in life. Read them frequently so when you feel particularly vulnerable, you can replace lies with God’s truth.

If you are hurting spiritually, please reach out to God. He made you. He knows everything about you. I would encourage you to pick up a easy to read version of the Bible and start reading about Jesus in the book of John. Will putting Christ in your life make you well? Not likely, but it will bring you peace as you go through this life.

Father, I pray that you will reach out to the one reading this blog and let them feel your presence. Please ease their physical, emotional, and mental suffering as they deal with being chronically ill. Heal their broken body if it is your will, for your glory. Please give them your peace, that your Word promises surpasses all understanding. Please give them a desire to know you. Amen.

*Unglued by Lysa Terkeurst